True Love

Yesterday, my colleague, Candy asked me: “ Why are you still single? ” What a complicated question to me! I answered her back, “I haven’t find my true love.” I will be single until the day has come to me. Candy is same age with me and had been together with her boyfriend for more than 4 years. I guessed she is planning for marriage. She used to talk and share with me about her family, classmates and boyfriend.

I asked myself. Does ‘True Love’ exist? Can I find my true love and always be happy?
Love relationship never been an easy path for any of us to walk along.
I have so much consideration when thinking of it and so much doubts, fears and uncertainty that going to arouse inside me.

Candy told me again how her female friend left her boyfriend for another rich guy. I sighed heavily and shook my head. Yes, it’s true! At the end of the day, you are not the right person; she is looking for next one and marries him. How you feel about this?

I wonder about true love. Can someone reassure me?

Missing You...

I'm thinking of visit Maha Vihara Temple alone tomorrow morning.
Since the departure of Chief Reverend, I seldom visit to temple. I have a lot of good memories in there, a sweet memories that I ever had with you. Suddenly, you appeared in my mind, I started missing you! I wonder how are you doing lately, I really miss you… I thought I can let go you, but I am wrong, you always in my heart.

6 years ago, we met each other through learning Dharma in college. The first time of meeting you, I already had this special feeling for you although I didn’t know you. I always believe in fate or we so called Karma, due to this good Karma, we eventually will meet again! I still remembered I was a fresher that time; you were my senior from Accounting course. The second time of meeting you, I was attending a Wesak Day activity. The third time I saw you again and it was in a Dharma sharing activity. I was curious why I met you all the time, even in school, in the bus or in the canteen. I am too shy to ask more about you due to my poor English. I always gave you my silly smiles. Later, I became a member of Buddhist Society and joined the unit, which is called Dharma Sharing Unit (DSU) without knowing that you were the coordinator of this unit.
I know I need to improve my English if I want to communicate with you. Since this is an English unit and you can’t understand Mandarin, I got really work hard in order to learn Dharma and also for my studies. I did improved and later I was invited by you to become the committee member of DSU.

We worked and spent a lot of time together, and that was how I fall in love with you.
Your understanding and cares made me feel so warmed in my heart. I knew I totally in love with you. I think I was in some kind of mess. I shouldn’t love you, but I can’t control myself thinking of you all the time. You really drove me crazy! I told you and all my friends I liked you and admired you. But I never officially confess to you that ‘I love you’, because I was so afraid to lose you. I choose to become your good friend and I will always be there for you if you need me.

I wish you all the best and may the great happiness be with you all the time.
I know one day I will find my happiness too!